When Alessandro woke me up by announcing that he had a surprise for me, I immediately threw the covers over my head. You see, I'm one of those people that reads the last chapter of a book first, that looks up the movie synopsis before I start watching the movie and who rejects plans with everyone unless they are on my calendar two weeks in advance.
I like to know things, I don't like spontaneity and I like to have plans and checklists for anything and everything possible.
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I don't like surprises. Big or small, I like to know about anything that involves me at all times. Obviously this has turned into a challenge for certain people (cough, cough) who are determined to surprise me. Alessandro tried to surprise me by coming to visit me for my birthday but through perseverance, shamelessness and stubbornness, I got him to admit his surprise before it happened. Alessandro also tried to surprise me with his proposal. Though he did surprise me about having plans on the day, I refused to go anywhere with him until I knew the exact location.
Therapists would probably describe me as a control freak. Even though my surprise that day ended up being Alessandro just bringing home my favorite red velvet muffin for me (probably not the biggest reason to refuse to get out of bed), the toll it took on my nerves is probably not normal.
So one of my new goals? Lighten up!
Life has been pretty unpredictable lately. It seems like nothing has been going according to plan. Ale and I have been dealt a few rotten cards which have flipped aspects of our life upside down. Should I sit around and mope? Should I stay up all night trying to revise my plans?
I guess it's time I throw out my plans and instead appreciate the everyday surprises.
Something I learned a long time ago is that staying up all night worrying isn't going to change the outcomes of the next day. Flipping out when things aren't going as well as I had hoped, won't drain anyone's energy but mine.
It's definitely not going to be easy. I have been set in my ways about for about 25 years so I need to start off small. Whether it is not knowing what I'm going to have for dinner tomorrow night or going to the movies without knowing the ending ahead of time.
...I mean the book and the movie are never actually better when you know the ending anyway.